Trust in the Lord with
all your heart
and lean not on your
own understanding.
Proverbs 3:5
The round block of wood sits in the
windowsill above my kitchen sink. The words “Total Trust”
engraved in it as a way to pass the hours while Trent was at a
friend's house for a weekend many years ago. I see it every time I
fill up the coffee pot, every time I wash a dish, every time I look
out over the farmyard to make sure there are no critters running
around on the wrong side of the fence.
Total Trust.
Often times it convicts me to read
those two simple words. It pierces my heart and makes me ask again
and again, am I trusting? Total trust? Like the challenge course at
summer camp, when they ask for a volunteer for the faith drop. Stand
up on this ledge, now turn around, close your eyes and just fall
backward. We've got you. Don't be scared.
I was never brave enough to volunteer.
I'm not even sure if I ever had any vital part in the actual catch.
Nobody asked me this time if I wanted to be the one on the ledge. God
doesn't call out, seeking for courageous volunteers. He chooses you.
He sets you up on that ledge and inquires, “Do you trust Me?” His
loving, fatherly hands held beneath us all the time as we stand
there, knees shaking, doubting the goodness of the very maker and
sustainer of our existence. Once He asks, the rest of our lives are
spent answering that simple question.
Total Trust.
Sometimes that round piece of wood
changes its tactic and is not convicting, but rather encouraging.
It's as if those two small words are whispering to my soul. Yes,
total trust. Peace envelopes like a warm ray of sunshine, and for a
moment a flooding of joy overtakes the heartache. The anxiety attacks
stop and falling-off-the-ledge-trust becomes easier. Eternity feels
closer. The promises are clearer. Desperate pleas turn once more into
prayers, sorrow shifts to rejoicing, and a smile even forms from the
inside. Eyes turned again to Jesus, towards a Savior who has this all
in His hands and under His sovereign control.
Total Trust.
I never would volunteer to do that demonstration either- mostly because I was always the chubbiest kid there...:) I think as long as we are still in this flesh, we will struggle with total trust in Him. I thin everyone stuggles with this - no matter the circumstances as to why. That is why I pray daily "more of you Lord, less of me" I struggle with trust in everyday things - I'm actually a nervous Nellie - even with all I know and He has brought me through...blessings from Ringle, WI.
ReplyDeleteSo glad we can have total trust in our Saviour!
ReplyDeleteSo often I read your posts but can't put into words thoughts or feelings. Prayers for you & yours. Blessings! Lara
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